Here's a sneak peek to my next short story... It'll be in English this time... I hope I can finish writing it soon enough.... Enjoy~
When we wake up every day, there’s only one name that goes through your head and makes you smile. When he text you, you can’t stop smiling yet it feel so right. During good times, you wish he’s there to share the moment…during bad times, you wish he’s there to give you a warm hug. Every second, from the very beginning to very end, your heart never stop beating faster than it should when he’s around. Feeling so crushed that you can’t even explain when he left. Have you ever felt that? Well, yes…I do. This is some sort of ‘letter’ that I hope you would want to read….only if you ever stumbled around my page.
Remember the first day you entered the junior high class? You were the first guy in the class that I met. The fact that you’re from my dad’s origin really attract me. Then, we entered the second year. We get closer because of the ‘family tree’ stuff going on in the class. It was cool. It felt so right to have such a close conversation with you. You were my ‘cousin’. That time, you were involved with a girl from the other class and so was I. Third year was when we starts to not really care about each other but I still notice your presence, sitting there in front of the teacher’s table. I got a lot of shits going on and I don’t know anything about you.
High school separates us more far apart. We weren’t in the same class like we used to but I heard a lot of thing about you and her. That time, for no reason, I felt something. I don’t know what but it surely touched me. And then there was last year of high school. For some reason, every time I saw you, I felt like smiling. It’s a bit confusing. Then, I found out that you really ever dated her, my best friend. I was like….hmmm…. Only then I know, I actually have something for you but I was too unsure whether I should let you know or not. You might not believe what I’m going to say.
I remembered the time when I turned 18, you text me. Only after your ex that is my best friend, told you about it. I felt very much ‘jumpy’ that day. But I kept it down, cause it seems to me you still like her. Everything ends there, I lost your number and that’s it. Until…one day, all of a sudden, you’re all over my head. I asked for your number from her and I text you. At first, it was just about some work for our former school. The next day, I was so determined that I want to tell you about it.
I couldn’t believe that you’re such a player. You have a girl and a few scandals. Maybe I like you too much until I don’t care about it. You accepted me as your second girl. I’m cool with it. You really made me feel special. I’ve fallen in love with you since the very first minute we’re together.
I’d love to go around telling all the people around me that we’re together but I can’t cause you’re involved with so many girls. You know, one of my tutorial friend who ever saw you photo as my screensaver said “eh, both of you look somewhat alike!”. And they said, if we look alike, we’re meant to be. That time, I became more and more sure that we’ll be together forever!
There was time when I accidently exposed about our relationship to one of your ‘scandal’. She cried, you asked for my help and I did. She believed my lies. The lies that I told to someone I never lied to. It’s okay, as long as we’re still together. I love you very much. I told my friends, that I never ever going to let you go. If it’s going to end, you’re the one who’s going to end it and you’ll be the first guy to dump me. You did. You dump me.
One night, I felt uneasy and text you. You sent her the text that you supposed to send to me. This time, nothing worked. You have to tell her the truth. I told her I’ll back off. I asked you, what’s going to happen next. I was hoping that you would say something like “let’s keep it down for a little while, okay?”. Instead, you said “I have to let you go”.
You know how much I love you, how much you mean to me, how hurt I’m going to be if you let me go and still … What more should I say? I can’t force you. I realized that you love her more though you said you love me. I did try to win your heart back...it’s useless.
Maybe now, there’s this guy back in my life...you’re still stuck in my head. I’m slowly turning him into your shadow. We did text sometimes. I act as if I’m cool about it but deep inside…”bby still love hby…there won’t be any other ‘better guy’ for me…cause I love you for who you are….and the fact that my 1 year only worth 5 days to you, really crushed me but I still love you…forever!”…..
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